Tuesday, January 10, 2017

purpose.

Thoughts Upon the New Year:

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Sinking.

Down we sink into the depth of things--  to do.  to see. to think.

Into the depth of our thoughts, we drown.  We flail.

Sinking.

Thoughts surround us.
Are we good enough.  Do we deserve to be here?  Do we deserve others to care?  Do we deserve to feel?

Our thoughts begin to strangle us.

 You could never be loved.  You could never be good enough.  You will never begin to deserve.

But God.

The two words pour in.  They fill.  They complete.

But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ...
For by grace you have been saved through faith.  

This is not of your own doing; it is a gift of God.

Ephesians 2:4 & 8

And Grace Pours in.

I have been made new.  I cannot do anything, and yet God loves me.  God is there for me.  

Yes.  I will never even begin to deserve.

But God.

I do not need to begin to deserve because God has given us the greatest gift on earth--

Mercy & Grace

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So many thoughts have filled my heart lately.  About my faith.  About my undeserving and aweful heart.

I have never been a fan of New Years resolutions because as a human being, I know how fickle the heart is.

Instead of having a New Years resolution I have once again put my mind to die to sin.  For this task is so great that resolving once a year will prove no profit.  Instead I will die daily to my sin.  I will strive to let God take control.

No.  I do not find this easy.  Yes.  I will fail.  Day after day, after day, after day.

But I know whom I believe in, and he is able and willing to keep me until the day.

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